AhKhai's

2011-01-08T11:14:00.000+08:00

Just hate me and move on baby.

This is goodbye.

2010-12-27T13:33:00.000+08:00

This will be the last post of this blog.
Well, to those who are reading. I just wanna say goodbye to all of you. It's just I don't wanna try anymore. Because every time I tried so hard, I always end up hurting others. Every time I try, I get so scared of losing anyone and therefor I make mistakes over and over again, be it the same one or another mistake. You guys might say people make mistakes, that what humans are. But I make too much mistakes that I believe no one could trust me. Maybe this is my life, to be hated by people, to make people hate me. Maybe I'm just stupid that most of the people look down on me. Maybe I'm so stupid that I hurt my love ones around me. They say, pray to god and he help you. I somehow stop believing that. Be it if it make me sinful or what but everytime I pray, it get worse and worse. Or is it just, I'm a toy to god that he just wanna play my life around.

Friends. I try so hard to make friends like me. I always try to fit it, but somehow I just never did fit in fully. My existence is just a pain to them I guess. Maybe for awhile but later on, I no longer mean anything. Every single year when we change classes, I'm always afraid on what friends I will make. Because I know after that year, I will lose them. Everytime I have a problem or when I'm down, how I really wish I have someone to talk to. Whenever I talk to anyone whenever I'm down, somehow i get this feeling that I'm just disturbing their life. That was why, I stop telling everyone my problems or what makes me down. I know some of you will feel disappointing, but just hate me okay..

Relationships. The biggest mistake on this topic that I did in my life. Throughout the years, I always hurt others. I always get jealous whenever I see happy couples out there but I know happiness is not fated in my life. Everytime I try, I hurt my girlfriend. Everytime I love, I get too over possessive as I'm so afraid of losing her and that leads to so many mistakes such as my temper, me raising voice, change of attitude, saying things I shouldn't and doings things.. that lead to her heartbreak. So, that's how a useless bastard I am. I always show the opposite of how I really feel. Actions speaks louder then words. So, no matter what I say I know my actions prove to them the opposite. I met this girl, a special one that is so dear to me few years back. She's the one that really treat me the best, the one to make me feel so loved, the one that always make me move on in life, the one who change me. She gave me so much chances yet I always tend to blow each and every single one of them. My friends would always say that I deserve better, but I told them I myself know that is she is the one who deserve better. I always messed things up, I always hurt her, I always make her cry. I don't want to see her suffering because of me anymore. Really, I hope when that girl one day read this blog, I just wanna say this to her. That I'm sorry and over the things I lie and bullshit to you,for all my mistakes that i hurt you with. I never did lie that I love you.I believe you deserve someone better then a bastard, maybe I'm just worse than that.

Family. I always had been so rude to my family. I always scold them, hurls vulgarities behind them. I'm the stupid one in the family, the one who make them dissapointed in me. I believe I never did make them proud out of me. I'm always jealous of my cousins who goes to JC, or even Poly. They always get the praises. I always get compared. And I always make my mum cry even though I know how much she love me.

So there you guys go. How a bad person I am inside. I don't deserve anyone. I don't deserve to be loved or even love anyone. I'm not fit to. I don't want to hurt or even make anyone suffer around me anymore. I just wanna apology to everyone for everything I say and did. I know, I did mistakes to every single one of you out there. I'm cutting my line soon and selling my phone away. I won't be online much or maybe not even using it anymore. I won't go out with anyone who ask me to go shopping or any of those. For those who know where I live, I just wanna make a request. Please after reading this, don't come to my house and look for me. I don't want to see anyone. I guess this is goodbye. Takecare of yourself .

Transformers 3 Official trailer 2011

2010-12-11T22:04:00.000+08:00

Director: Michael Bay
Writer: Ehren Kruger
Stars: Shia LaBeouf, Rosie Huntington-Whiteley and Tyrese Gibson

Cast Credited cast:
Shia LaBeouf - Sam Witwicky
Josh Duhamel -Major William Lennox
Rosie Huntington-Whiteley Carly
John Malkovich- Sam's Boss
Hugo Weaving- Megatron (voice)
Patrick Dempsey - Dylan
Ken Jeong John Turturro - Simmons
Frances McDormand - Marissa Faireborn
Alan Tudyk - Dutch
Tyrese Gibson - Robert Epps
Frank Welker - Soundwave (voice)
Peter Cullen - Optimus Prime (voice)
Keiko Agena - Mearing's Aide
Kevin Dunn Ron Witwicky

Be back soon

2010-10-30T19:22:00.002+08:00

Be back soon

Crazy things you do when you are suddenly hungry

2010-10-30T19:22:00.000+08:00

Well, people tend to do crazy things when they get hungry.
There's lots of it and the list goes on.
For me I have quite a few of them.

Sometimes when I get hungry, I tend to parkour.
So what is parkour exactly you may ask.

Parkour's emphasis on efficiency distinguishes it from the similar practice of free running, which have more emphasis and choices on freedom of movement and creativity.
The goal of it is to move from one spot to another as fast and efficient as possible.
I once fell and fractured my right arm as a result.
But it never stopped me of playing that sport.

Second, is my passion for bodybuilding.

My friends ask me why do I lift weights when I'm hungry, don't I feel tired at all?
I just guess its personal preference.
For my case, I tend to get hands on things when I feel hungry.
It somehow makes me more energetic.
I usually do my abs on this ab machine which I bought few months back.

Third, I tend to do jump around like monkey on my bed.
I'm not sure why either but I have a habit of doing that since young whenever my stomach is grumbling.
Even though I'm 18, I still enjoy doing that.
Like they say, your never too young for your age.

But over all the rest.
I found something which can keep me from feeling hungry.
That is the Mr Potato Rice Crips.
It really makes me feel better. And what's best of all is that I can bring it anywhere I go.
I could put it in a bag, in my dad's car or I could put it beside my computer while I'm playing my daily computer games. My favourite overall is the Flame Grilled BBQ.
The Mr Potato Rice Crips contains

No added Msg
20% Less fat compared to other fried potato chips ( which also good for bodybuilders like me since we have our own diet plan )
Choleserol & Trans Fat free
Gluten Free
No Artificial colouring
Halal Cert ( Which is good for all the muslims (: )
Member of the Snack Food Association

So what are you waiting for? Try it now today !
It's delicious!

There’s no need to act like a madman because there is Mister Potato Rice Crisps for you to munch on, anytime, anywhere.

Jay Park Concert at wavehouse (:

2010-09-26T10:58:00.001+08:00

So well this post is all gonna be about him.
The queue was so long yesterday when i reached around 6+pm.
And I heard from my cousin that some already stayed over around 2am in the morning to wait for him (: .
Wow crazy? But i guess it was worth it since they got the front row and saw him.
Around 7+ they let us in but had a spotcheck of foods first which need to be throw.
After that, we waited for jay to arrive.
So Daniel ong came and warm up us for awhile (:

After that we had michael jackson tribute .

Followed by another performance .

After that Jay finally came out and singing nothing on you by B.O.B

& Sorry for the bad quality and movement now.
People were pushing and I'm not sure why it's blur anyway.
Real sorry.

Yup I stopped filming after that since I was standing near to the pool and the guard keep asking to stop filming. Envy those people standing in the middle which they can film the whole time !
But i will update this post with more videos after i found the rest at youtube (:
The show continues until around 10pm and it finally ended.
Well overall, it was enjoyable :D

The lovely past

2010-07-30T20:09:00.000+08:00

When sometimes you think back on what you done in the past, you will tend to regret and wish you never had done it.
Because maybe then, some things could be avoided in the future.
I really miss the past , that's all i could say.
I really wish i could have undone everything

Toy story 3 (:

2010-06-27T11:33:00.000+08:00

Met that dummy yesterday.
Suppose to meet at 12.45pm at Tampines but well i reached at 1pm.
Sorry ): LOL.
Took 969 to woodlands then don't know take what bus to the Market place.
Had her piercing done then took bus to Marsiling Mrt & trained to Vivo after that.
Que-ed up for movie for like quite some time.
In the end, left first and second row -.-

We trained to Dhouby and went to Cathay to book 7.30pm one.
At that time, we had 1 hour+ before the movie.
So went to Plaza Sing for awhile to get what sodium thing .
Walked back to Cathay and waited.

The movie was quite funny (:
People may say it's for small kids, but i think the opposite way.
It's still quite enjoyable for those elderly also? LOL.
But i think it's quite irritating since i had to use 2 specs, making me having 6 eyes -.-
After the movie ended, it was already 9.30pm
So took trained .
Dropped at Tampines and She dropped at Pasir Ris.
Home around 10.40pm

Wednesday , 15th June.

2010-06-22T15:56:00.000+08:00

Didn't update last week as was busy (:
Well, once again happy belated birthday bro !
So went out with mum to Simei to change Sg > My Currency as going to Malaysia that weekend.
After changed, went to buy my hotdog puff(?) or whatever it is called then trained to TM to get a cake for him.
At last , we bought the cupcakes due to no cake available -.-.
Seperated with her, then trained to dhouby.
At there, i was quite blur actually.
I thought they was at dhouby, and didn't heard properly at the phone that they were at cathay. HAHA.
At last baby also reached dhouby so i met up with her first then went off to Cathay .
Went basement to find them, called and they said they already went out to smoke .
So after that, we booked tickets for Karate kid.
Later on Birthday boy and Rab came (:
We then waited for the show to start , and went in there :D
The show was great 5/5 (: HAHA.
Then we went to what bridge, i forgot the name .
We went off around 9+ .
Send her home then reached home around 10.30pm. (:

2010-06-20T22:02:00.000+08:00

Im lazy to update, but i just wanna say.
I regretted going for holiday,it sucks
I didn't enjoy one bit, even the swimming pool.
I kept thinking of things going on in Singapore, I just hate it when i go overseas and something happen.

You know i want ya

2010-06-09T22:28:00.000+08:00

Saturday went out with babylove.
Met that idiot at Pasir Ris then we trained to Bugis.
Walked around Bugis then went to Iluma .
Got some maple event there if i'm not wrong, well whatever.
Couldn't find the watch she wanted.
So we went to Haji Lane for Shisha .
Around 6 going to 7, we bus-ed to Parkway Parade.
There she found her watch which cost $150.
After that, we took 21 home (:

Love life

2010-05-29T02:35:00.002+08:00

I met this girl few years back.
We became friends and then good friends and finally, we got together.
Yes i admit we was happy together.
Because of this girl, i try to changed alot of things.
I tried to quit fighting, to quit smoking & to stop all those bad habits of mine so that i could be a perfect boyfriend to her.

All those times together, our dates.
Those movies we watched together.
And when i would rushed quickly to bedok mrt straight after school to take the train to punggol to fetch her and was afraid to be late.
And when we love to buy starbucks/coffee bean, remember?
Well, the list is endless if i keep carry on like this.

But all the happiness ended when she found out what i did.
Well, i did a very bad thing when we just got together.
Something which i don't really wish to say, not that i care about my face.
But i don't wish to bring this matter up .

After 7 months of being together, the relationship ended.
And so, i tried ways one after another to get her back.
But somehow everytime when we get together back, there's sure something which will bring us apart again.
Finally i understand.
That trust that took so long to build up was destroyed by that stupid mistake.
Yes, i was childish.
A year + or maybe even 2 year of being with you, i just wanna say i'm glad to have met you .
Be it friend or girlfriend, your a great girl and that i have to admit.
Thanks for everything, ex girlfriend.
i miss those times with you.

2010-05-28T16:00:00.000+08:00

I won't be updating for awhile due to exams (:
Sorry .

I really thought we could be together again.

2010-05-26T00:15:00.003+08:00

This post is for you, love.
Somehow I really had thought we could be back together again.
But after all this while, i finally realise that it won't happen.
You won't come back, you already have moved on long ago.

I'm the third party all this while.
Well at least, your happy now

Tiger?

2010-05-24T19:17:00.002+08:00

Just sharing since I have nothing to post about.

2010-05-23T21:15:00.002+08:00

My phone is spoilt since morning.
Could not even turn it on.
I guess it's battery is having some problem.
And i don't have a spare phone .
Damn.
Going out in an hour time to buy the battery, which i don't even know where it is located at.

Well, haven't been blogging much lately.
Just got bored of it.
People say boys who blog are like girlish.
Haha, wth .
Just stfu idiots.

2010-05-22T10:15:00.002+08:00

I don't know what to update.
So i'm not gonna update much.
I'm going to cut my hair and study after that (:
Bye.

Pizza Delight?

2010-05-12T20:12:00.004+08:00

That pizza was awesome .
Had that craving for it a long time & finally got it.
Sorry for the bad picture quality though.
I bet your saliva is dripping when you guys are looking at this picture right? :B
You guys should try it !

& help me click on my nuffnang ads ♥

2010-05-12T09:17:00.004+08:00

Fucked up game.
The only help was Vs .
Furion was the worst -.-
And i went for the wrong build at the wrong game lol

Like that ' us 'never did existed.

2010-05-11T21:26:00.003+08:00

Short day today, Karaoke later on and bugis after that.
Reached home early today as i'm tired.
Tommorow school starts at 1.30pm since morning lesson canceled .
And test starts at 1.30pm. Let's just hope it's easy .

' We built it up to watch it fall like we meant nothing at all
I gave and gave the best of me but i couldn't give what you need '

18 May

2010-05-08T08:44:00.000+08:00

Anyone going for the 18 May club event? (:
If going text me okay.

Sick again ):

2010-05-07T09:49:00.001+08:00

Can't stand being sick.
Fever, back ache, flu and sore throat -.-
wtf like combo only

Best! :)

2010-05-06T21:21:00.005+08:00

I LOVE KRISTI KHONG SUE LIN! :) ♥

Stupid troublesome asshole! Puki mak. No hand update is it?!

Heh. Went over t Tamp Mac look for this negro w his usual peeps.

Sorry I dumb don't know which Mac la. I also never really go Tamp one! Babi.

Kukubird daddy & mummy left soon after.

Later on bus-ed down J8 w Ayunie & Mat. Halfway damn urgent la. You kp!

Then blahblah, & this puki mak fetched me home before 10pm. Heh.

I damn lazy type alr la! Be honoured, ass!

Firstly, I love Kristi Khong Sue Lin.

Last but not least, I still love Kristi Khong Sue Lin.

HAHAHA.

Until you realised.

2010-05-04T22:07:00.004+08:00

Went to school as per normal at 9am.
Met with the two at inter and met with the other two outside school (:
Had practical test. It was okay (:
Lazy to elaborate much about it.

One thing that i'm so pissed off is because of my manager.
i don't understand her at all lol.
I mean i like working at that place .
Is just that she's not those kind of understanding person -.-
Common, it's not as if i don't want come to work.
My school timetable, my freetime or i'm see on that certain day that's why i can't come .
you say that i cause inconvenience in your daily operation?
Then fire me.
Why still keep me?
I respect every single one of the people working there, except for you.
cause your so unreasonable <:

Halo Reach Beta

2010-05-03T18:28:00.004+08:00

Halo fans all over the world are getting ready today for the Halo Reach Beta to launch. The beta is set to launch, from what I can gather anyway, today (Monday) around 1pm EST/10am PST. The beta will run for 17 days, and end on May 19th. That's going to leave a long, painful wait from that day until September when the full game launces, but at least these next two and a half weeks will be pure gaming bliss to satiate our hunger.

These times are definitely not set in stone as there isn’t a whole lot of information out about the Halo Reach Beta start time.However, the Halo Reach Beta is coming and it is expected that it will consist of two maps – Swordbase and Powerhouse.

According to Hovied, Skwordbase is an indoor, multi-leveled map, separated into two parts by a central area. Powerhouse on the other hand is an outdoor map that focuses on a circular wall situated in the center of the map. These two maps provide you with opposite playing experiences in order to give you an taste of what is to come in the full game. The level design for both maps seems well-balanced and I haven’t experienced any hiccups trying to get around.So come 1PM EST, it will be interesting to see if the Halo Reach Beta actually launches. I’m sure there will be no shortage of bloggers updating all of us about the launch and I will try to keep updates posted here.

Let us know if you see the Halo Reach Beta launch at 1pm.

Remember, you need a copy of Halo 3:ODST to get into the beta. If you still don't have it, it's not too late as you can still order it on Amazon or rent it with a free gamefly trial. But you'd better hurry!

& For more info, you guys could check out this sites <:

Early access to the game? http://www.haloreachbeta.com/content/get-early-access-halo-reach-beta

http://www.haloreachbeta.net/

http://www.haloreachbeta.com/

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2010-05-02T22:39:00.004+08:00

Went out to meet Mat and Yuni again today at Tamp,
since i also going to collect my bangle from couple lab.
Why couple lab? Idk also :D
Overall i just feel it have nicer engraving then other shops
I just feel it's nice and i bought it only for myself and engrave my own name on it.
Waited for them around 20 minutes since they was from Changi Airport.
Once they reached, i went to buy my muah chee and we bus-ed to Parkway to eat.

Then we took 31 and i dropped at Bedok and took 18 home.
Pictures below <: And sorry for the bad quality , i just couldn't find my camera usb cable. So i use phone to take. Will take a better quality tomorrow morning kay.

2010-05-02T22:31:00.002+08:00

Updated for 1st May !
Went out around 2+ & bus to Airport.
Went there to wait for Yuni finish work .
Saw Mirul there too <: since he just started his shift.
After that, went off with Mat and Yuni to her house as she wanted to put her bag down.
Me and Mat waited below.
After that,bus-ed to Bugis to find my jacket.
Actually planned, to buy the topman jacket since it's so damn nice to me .
But only that it's expensive & it's $73 .
And i didn't mind that.

But we just walked around to find others.
Then we went to this puma shop at Iluma .
The jacket there damn nice la , seriously.
But it's $169 . Buying it on my next pay i guess .
At last, i bought the Puma shirt which cost $69.90 .
After that, bus-ed to PP since they wanna eat but i left and took 31 since i was late to meet family.
And there was a damn jam at bedok -.-
Was pissed off and dropped at Tanah merah and cabbed home.
Lucky only cost $3+ .

After that, changed into the new shirt and went off to City Plaza to meet Cousins and their family.
Had planned to eat Arnold there <:
Ordered the Fish and squid or something like that.
Forgot the actual name.
After that, went off to the new bridge, helix .
The scenery was damn nice.
Around 12am+ , we went back home.

2010-05-01T12:14:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, 30th April.
After Ironman 2, we went to Sunplaza park to slack like always.
Bought my last box of cig, damn la . LOL.
Best came later on (: HAHA.
So fetched her from Mrt station then went back there.
And stop complaining weather hot la.
Whack you then you know.
Around 8pm, we left there and went home :D

2010-05-01T09:23:00.001+08:00

Going out later <:

Unanswered questions on the Oil Spill

2010-05-01T09:22:00.001+08:00

President Obama has ordered a freeze on new offshore drilling leases as well as a “thorough review” into what is almost sure to be the worst oil spill in this country’s history — exceeding in size and environmental damage the calamitous Exxon Valdez disaster in 1989.

There are many avenues to pursue. Here are two: the oil company’s response, and Mr. Obama’s. The company, BP, seems to have been slow to ask for help, and, on Friday, both federal and state officials accused it of not moving aggressively or swiftly enough. Yet the administration should not have waited, and should have intervened much more quickly on its own initiative.

A White House as politically attuned as this one should have been conscious of two obvious historical lessons. One was the Exxon Valdez, where a late and lame response by both industry and the federal government all but destroyed one of the country’s richest fishing grounds and ended up costing billions of dollars. The other was President George W. Bush’s hapless response to Hurricane Katrina.

Now we have another disaster in more or less the same neck of the woods, and it takes the administration more than a week to really get moving.

The timetable is damning. The blowout occurred on April 20. In short order, fire broke out on the rig, taking 11 lives, the rig collapsed and oil began leaking at a rate of 40,000 gallons a day. BP tried but failed to plug the well. Even so, BP appears to have remained confident that it could handle the situation with private resources (as did the administration) until Wednesday night, when, at a hastily called news conference, the Coast Guard quintupled its estimate of the leak to 5,000 barrels, or more than 200,000 gallons a day.

Only then did the administration move into high gear.

In addition to a series of media events designed to convey urgency — including a Rose Garden appearance by the president — the administration ordered the Air Force to help with chemical spraying of the oil slick and the Navy to help lay down oil-resistant booms. It dispatched every cabinet officer with the remotest interest in the disaster to a command center in Louisiana and set up a second command post to manage potential coastal damage in Alabama, Mississippi and Florida.

There are, of course, other questions to be asked. We do not know what caused the blowout or the fire, or why the valves that are supposed to shut off the oil flow in an emergency did not work.

We do not know whether there were other steps BP — and Transocean, the rig’s owner and operator — could have taken to prevent the blowout, and what steps, including new technologies, that can be taken to prevent such accidents in the future.

What we do know is that we now face a huge disaster whose consequences might have been minimized with swifter action.

Iron Man 2

2010-04-30T20:22:00.002+08:00

Even though Iron Man 2 can be watched yesterday, 29th April on certain location.
But we decided to watched today since we end at school at 12.30pm and the show started at 1.30pm (:
We booked our ticket using AXS machine.
Kept trying to get the best seats though.

Well, the movie was great.
Great voices, effets and a nice handful of action scenes.
After revealing his secret identity, the iron man to the world
Tony Stark(Robert Downey Jr) was pressured by the US government to hand over the ' Iron Man Suit ' as it was a threat to them.
In one part , he found out his suit is poisoning him.
He also have a russian enemy.
(: alright, i don't be a spoiler anymore.

I gave it 9.5/10 .
So where the other 0.5point goes to?
The sound & video effects is awesome but somehow some part of the movie, we could fortell what is going to happen.
I totally agree with some friends that the first one is way much better but overall i'm glad that it was a worthwhile movie(:
Go & watch it if you guys haven't , it is defineity worth your money & time .

Difference between iPhone 3G & 4G

2010-04-29T07:24:00.005+08:00

I was bored so i just went to surf random stuffs.
Was surfing whether it was worth to buy the iphone & what's the pros and cons of it .
but well apple said that it will be releasing a new iphone which is in 4g right?
And it said ' Many expect the fourth-generation iPhone to have new features such as a front-facing camera. '

& so I went to search what's the difference between the iPhone 3G & 4g
because i just couldn't resist to see what's the new features was.

So just compare between the iPhone 3g & 4g with the pictures below :O

The current iPhone now.

& this is the new iPhone 4g . The new features is nice right?<:

And below are the two concept designs of iPhone 4g.

And i also went to find out what's the difference between 3g and 4g data.

" And 3G data networks brought us speeds fast enough to run multimedia over the mobile handset. 4G brings a dramatic increase in speed over 3G, allows more stable and reliable connections through packet switched networks, and brings with it the capability of multiple carrier support."
So what's its trying to say is that it's more faster.

And if this phone is really what they it is through the pictures,
It will be my next phone after it's released <:

2010-04-28T19:12:00.004+08:00

School was alright today.
Met with them at inter & went to class.
Had EP (Electrical Principal) theory lesson .
Kinda could catch up with the theory since i paid attention to it .
After we had a break before our next lesson , which was EM(Electrical Machine) Practical.
Ate at cafe 3 (: .
After that, went to class and started doing the practical.
Was getting quite complicated this time, but over all i understand a little .
Tm(Technical maths) was the next lesson & left school around 3.30pm .
Took 31 and when reached inter, seperated with the rest and took bus home.

Reached home and ate my favourite carrot cake again.
Revised Maths for an hour & after that went to use the com :B
I just know that i won't give up on my studies & hope you guys won't give up too okay!

2010-04-27T22:15:00.004+08:00

Because the more you try to explain things, the more things get complicated
and the more people thought your guilty so it's better we just shut our mouth

I just wanna say, goodbye

None of it never did came true, so why must this be right (:

2010-04-27T21:35:00.002+08:00

Didn't went school .
Met up with the rest 1pm at mac > slack > split up with them > went simei for soccer > home.
bye

2010-04-27T21:35:00.000+08:00

Didn't went school .
Met up with the rest 1pm at mac > slack > split up with them > went simei for soccer > home.
bye

2010-04-27T08:31:00.005+08:00

I'm lazy to argue with you over smses .
Because i don't want to waste my smses and make my bill go up .
And no one know who am i talking to anyway, big deal if i lose my face or what people think of me.
Because i know my exs , my close friends & mostly those who know me long know i'm not that type of guy .

& Because of that reason huh.
HAHAHA .
Common, if i'm that despo for kisses i could just go for geylang, pay them $50 for a kiss.
And if you don't even know if that is just disturbing or really wanting a kiss, then just shutup?
And to differentiate between a real and a non feeling fake . lmao
It's common sense . Geylang, whores , bitches, hongsters, flirts . all got for me to kiss if I'm despo
And if saying so much after saying sorry is called immatured, then i don't even know what's the word to called those really immature once (; hahaha

I won't let my pride and face go down because of this.
Wtv, bye

2010-04-26T00:21:00.002+08:00

Went for work yesterday.
Reached there and they say i need work at Wild wild wet for yesterday.
I went there and i got lost, couldn't find the staff door
So i went back kfc, ask rider to put resignation letter at manager table and i went home.
Off hp the whole day, since i was saving battery anyway
I charge my hp 3 days once now, never used it that much anymore

So for today, took 22 to Amk hub.
1 hr trip from my home .
Met with Mat, walk around there then went Y8 then went Bugis to meet yuni .
Walk around there, and went to Shisha.
Around 9, went off back.

Am so going to buy that topman jacket & that three quarter pants.
Even if i don't work, i'm still a good saver .
So what for working, since i could save $30-$50 per week without doing anything .

Going start back studying tommorow.
Library on tuesday. bye

2010-04-24T10:02:00.001+08:00

It's been two weeks that i've been sabo-ing work shift.
Kept never go.
Idk la, feel so sian when go work.
Everytime i want go, i will have this feeling that i don't need the extra money.
That's why i kept not going.

2010-04-24T07:36:00.004+08:00

Shutter island sucks.
End of story. bye.

2010-04-22T09:52:00.003+08:00

I should have just heeded W's advice.
I shouldn't have been nice.
It's no use being nice .
It's all plain bullshit.
I should have just treat everyone like how i used to .

I shouldn't have care for anyone either.
Because it's better to not trust anyone that much, that way you be happier.
I don't wanna care anymore. neither do i want to be so good anymore.
I don't care what people think of me, but don't ever put words in my mouth .
I will know what i did, and i will admit it .
But i won't admit my wrong if in the first place, i never even did it . Get it?
So put into that big brain of yours okay guys .

Because i know you already did.

2010-04-21T21:32:00.002+08:00

Met with amirul and basha at inter.
while waiting for them, some hsa & police going around asking ite students for ic & etc.
Well whatever.
Reached school, lucky no teacher so can go in through the main gate .
Went to toilet to clip up my hair since it's EP lesson & confirm hair get caught.
After that break and lessons.
Mat and yuni came later on .
Went to inter with them, went to ljs and then home .

& Sorry to all i never reply your sms.
I don't wish to top up anymore.
Idk , because when i have the prepaid or when i get a hold of my line card again .
I will just tend to , well you know i know k .
So anything just call my house (; bye

2010-04-19T20:40:00.004+08:00

I guess today is the happiest day and well, the saddest day for me too .

Happiest since i already got the straightener after so longgggg. (;
& thanks bro !
Cost me $80 if not $100++?

Sad, since i got back and found out something.
Which totally make me so damn down .

& i just wanted to say this line in malay.
Somehow i find the lyrics to that song is what i'm feeling now.

Walapun hatiku kau lukai, namunku masih menyayangi

but now i guess it's time.
I no longer want anything.
I just hope we be friends than strangers.

Sometimes i wonder, how are you now.

2010-04-17T15:31:00.002+08:00

Been so long since i updated.
Well, i was so damn moodless this few days.
Didn't went for work for yesterday and today since i'm down with fever and vomiting.
At first thought of lying to take mc, in the end really sick.

Don't know what should i do now.
Ah, fuck.

2010-04-09T11:35:00.000+08:00

been badly sick this few days.
Fever & sore throat.
The side effects of controlling not to smoke? Wth.
But i know i just need to go through this, after that.
It'll be better and i won't smoke anymore.

Pathetic.

2010-04-08T19:02:00.005+08:00

Went to collect yearbook, then met up with bestie.
Slacked with her awhile till around 4 then headed to that cb place.

Fucked up salon .
If you guys don't know how to listen to customer's instruction on how to cut,
then as well don't fucking work there?
Or maybe don't even fucking open the pcb shop in the mother fucking first place you son of a bitch.
I said to make to cut my fringe shorter abit until eyebrow length.
And this is what you call eyebrow length?
Cb you need bigger specs is it?
This is close to mullet, you blind or is it your ear deaf?
And my side.
I told you where to cut, where to cut it short.
NOT TO CUT THE DAMN LENGTH OF MY SIDEBURN.
How many times do i need to repeat myself?
I repeated like 4 times.
& you should be glad that i only said few vulgarities and left after that.

I shouldn't had care what people said or comment about my hair.
After this incident, i don't give a fuck anymore.
I regretted walking in the damn salon .
I don't care what people say or comment.
As long as i'm glad and happy, that's all that matters.
I don't need to cut my hair just to make people happy.

& Now i don't even have any mood to go school or go out.
I'm not blaming you guys . trust me, i didn't.
It's the others, those others ..... zzzzzz.

I don't want to care anymore.
I rather be like last time, who don't care much about anyone.
Why should i let all this thing get over my head?
& let anyone cross over my line.
It's no use being so good . HAHA .
I rather treat people the other way now.

Love,Hate,Love.

2010-04-08T00:42:00.002+08:00

Just came back home from work .
Need to O.T just nw from 1pm to 10pm.
& I finnaly got my pay.
But they counted wrong.
Texted manager just now but he said to text him tommorow cause he sleeping. Wtf?

I already eye-ing that $140 superman belt (:
Damn it, It's so damn chio.

2010-04-07T10:19:00.002+08:00

Finally bought my shoe yesterday (:
But i still have alot of things to buy
& i still haven't received my pay.
I'm lazy to elaborate about yesterday, maybe next time .

Just woke up & was like pissed off.
Was damn irritated since father watched tv with high volume and mum was typing noisy.
So i just shouted alot .
Blah whatever, & yes i get pissed easily nowadays.

Working later at 1pm till 10.
Last week of work maybe, then after that i can just leave that fucking place.
Stupid job. Great friends made there but only fucked up manager(s?) .

2010-04-05T21:32:00.002+08:00

Well before you guys say anything.
Think first, think of the possibilities.
You sure you know who i really am? My family background?
Shut your mouth then (:
I kept this secret for so damn long.
And yes, i didn't told anyone from ite yet.

So whatever.
Just keep your mouth shut .

Now I'm dying to forget you

2010-04-05T19:20:00.003+08:00

Took 21 to bedok > met with hisyam > took certificate > ate macs > walk to bedok inter > home.
Quitting work soon.
I'm not your dog or a cleaner.
Don't blame me if i ever argue with customers.
I already told you guys i don't wanna do any flooring or cashier which involve communicating with customers.

I will forget you .

Everything is just a bad dream

2010-03-31T22:21:00.002+08:00

Maybe one day there's a way, hopefully.
But if there's none, then you have to remember that i once love you so deeply.
And if we don't see each other anymore, i hope life treats you kind
And i hope, you will have all you dream of
And that you will always be happy

It's like my mind knows what's right but my heart is being retarded and still cares

2010-03-29T23:54:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday ayuni !
:D hope you always be happy okayyyyy.

Planned to meet her at 1pm at tamp inter.
So i went out around 12.30 & walked slowly to inter since i was lazy to take the bus.
Reached , walked around for awhile & waited.
Finally, she and mat came.
Smoked first & then i told them i wanted to buy something.
So went into the shoe shop which i forgot what name is it, & bought the everlast shoe for her .
hope you like it okay.

After that, went to eat at Ljs .
Later, rab and amirul came .
We then caught the movie ' When in rome ' .
A great show (:
Wish i can do that hah.
Yuni and mat went off fater the movie.
Left me, rab and mirul .
We then bought 3 hot chocs from Mac.
Worst thing ever laaa, so paiseh.
My hand suddendly cramped again due to the last injury while i was holding the cup to the drink.
And so, some of it spill on the table and worst, my shirt.
I was wearing white that time.
I was like cursing myself quietly . hahaha.
Then rab lend me her bag to cover the stains on my shirt, so that i can go to the toilet to was hit off.
When in the mac toilet, i just took off my shirt and starting washing to clean off the stains.
Funny part was that one ahbeng came in and gave me the shock look .
I wanted to laugh but tried to control.
After 5 mins, the stains was gone.
But half of the shirt was damn wet.
Lucky it's not obvious only that the shirt felt damn heavy.
Then followed mirul to send rab home.
We then took 34 i think to basha house there.
We dropped one bus stop before so we had to walk for quite awhile to his bus stop.
Then took mirul memory card and around 5 mins, basha went back home.
Slacked below his void deck awhile and just talked .
We then walked to inter slowly to top up my ezlink .
But the mrt there close already so can't top up consession.
So whatever la.
We went to slacked opposite library there.
Near sunplaza.
Had boy to boy talk again.
Then around 10.30 went back to inter and split up.

I just hope i can overcome all this.

I always had a wonderful life, it's me who ruined it

2010-03-25T22:24:00.003+08:00

Yes, looking back i always had a beautiful life.
I always took wrong turns and made wrong actions.
I guess i lost another close friend of mine today.
Sorry & thanks for everything over the past 4 years.
I kept it from you, because i just thought everything would be over with.
you know me, i always like to run away from problems.

I always created problems, ever since we met .
I wish you all the best .
Takecare, goodbye.

Can i lie and say i'm fine?

2010-03-24T10:19:00.006+08:00

Outing yesterday was okay.
Met up with mirul and rab at tamp inter ard 12+ .
Then went grandlink to meet up with mimi, yuni , mat .
Then we book the 18 person room for karaoke .
Damn big (; but the speaker sucks.
Didn't have mood to sing, well i don't want to break down.
W/e , Mus and Elfy came later on .

Then we walked around bugis, and went to eat at thr.
After eat which is ard 4.30 , we went to shisha.
had apple mint cherry flavour.
Elfy went for work ard 5.45.
Bal came later and we all finish ard 7.30 going 8?
After that i don't know went to what building/mall . I think simlim uh.
Split up with the rest, so me yuni mirul and rab went back bugis to walk around .
I still can't decided to dye mocha brown or ash brown? hm.
Ard 9.45, smoke first & then bus home .

The rest of the pictures will be on facebook (:

Sometimes, i don't know.
I just don't want to stay at home doing nothing.
When i have nothing to do , i will start thinking much.
I don't want to .
I don't know why everything its my fault.
I just feel it's my fault from the past, that's why it's becoming like this.
Nevermind (:
I will just keep everything to myself.
I don't wish to look pathetic, i won't let my pride go down.
Even if i have to fake a smile everyday, i'll do it .

Because we can't control who we love and we can't stop it whenever we want.

2010-03-22T15:00:00.005+08:00

Went gym just now in the morning with basha.
He damn late la !
Quite alot of people today since monday morning , there will always be an instructor to teach girls how to exercise and etc .
So yea, did mostly abs and shoulder?
I want my abs to grow more bigger
It's not that i don't like the way it is now, i just want more (: .
I want big abs :D HAHA.
Going gym again on thurs , anyone wanna go?

Working later on.

Sorry .

Can i just wait silently.

2010-03-21T23:50:00.003+08:00

21st March

Work as per normal, 5 - 11pm.
Work was quite fun as the colleagues there all friendly and nice.
But it's tiring .
Pay haven't come, and i already planned so much what to spent on .
Superman belt - $140
Watch - $70
Everlast Shoe - $40 - 50
The rest is for my birthday chalet .
I know it's a long way later, but i just have to save it up (:

22nd March

Had planned to go out with amirul they all, but nevermind (:
Called one by one to ask who free, at last found someone :D
Thanks nic !
Met him around 4+ outside bedok swimming area there.
Then went to Xfire .
Dota-ed whole time there.
Was boring, every game was 20mins+ since alot of leavers.
Totally not worth the money and time spent .
And i just keep on deproving on everythingggg.
Too much things on my mind i guess?
Ah w/e .
After that go eat chicken rice near swimming pool there.
Took 222 to bedok inter and trained to Pasir Ris inter.
Met up with Irina, Ilina, Zhian they all near 100++.
Around 10.50 left there.
And reached home around 11.45pm .
Damn fk, mum kp cause i told her i be back at 9+.
And so she didn't went out with dad .
And dad was otw home already .
So after dropped at safra .
Ran for like 10minutes straight home?
And i was with slippers. So yea, i got blisters.
Off for holiday nxt weekend .
Takecare all & you too .

Gone with the wind.

2010-03-18T11:03:00.003+08:00

Goodbye, takecare.

2010-03-17T22:19:00.002+08:00

I wanna change myself.
I wanna stop fighting over stupid problems .
Even if they touch me first, violence don't solve anything.
I don't want to live in my past anymore .
it's already 2010 .

& I just wanna be happy .
I don't want to think so much anymore.

Cause as far as I can see, you're doing fine without me..

2010-03-17T08:25:00.004+08:00

Work yesterday was okay.
But just tiring and i lost my mood halfway due to some stuffs.
Going school today later on for the 12pm lesson even though school start at 9 today.
Damn tired .

Z, get well soon (':
Hope to see you soon.

Because i hope you know, that i'm here for you

2010-03-15T20:05:00.004+08:00

Aiyo, I dont know what to do .
I don't know what to say, or even how to express it.
I just hope things goes my way.
I don't want to have sleepless nights due to thinking to much .

" Kehadiran kasih lamamu , datang kembali mengenang cinta dahulu "
even though it's from a song, i just wondering if it's what really happening now.
And readers, don't ask me what it meant.
Want to know, find it out yourself?

I don't think of you as a crush anymore,you're more like a bad habit that my heart can't shake.

2010-03-11T20:11:00.004+08:00

I guess this is the first post i be posting in malay.
And yes, it's the first time i'm doing it.
Somehow, i just want those who understand to understand it, and those who don't, just don't?

Aku tidak tahu apa feeling engkau kepada ku.
Aku sayang padamu, tetapi kadang-kadang aku rasa aku bukan sesiapa dalam hati kamu.

And to korang,
aku tahu perangai dia macam mane tetapi aku tak kisah.
Pasal aku sayang dia walaupun dia begitu.
Untuk aku, dia seorang yang aku mencari selama ini.
Aku berharap korang bersabar.
Aku selalu berasa sedih apebila satu diantara korang berkata yang tangan dia sudah ringan.
Aku taknak jadi middle-man lagi.
Korang sudah macam brother & sister aku.
And dia adalah seorang aku betul-betul sayang walaupun perangai dia begitu.
So tolong luh,
Aku tak nak hilang sesiapa pun.

2010-03-06T20:39:00.003+08:00

Happy belated birthday to Rab (:

After school, ate at cafe 1 with Ziting and Basha.
Then pei-ed her back home to get her camera and stuffs.
After that, we all went to tm to buy those potato chips and stuffs.
Went up to Tamp 1 rooftop to book seats? LOL !
Mimi came soon after that and basha left home.
Was so damn hot at there, so me and ziting went to the aircon room or so called the lift area.
While sitting, the security guard came out of the lift, and said can't sit here.
Camera looking.
I was giving the blur face -.-
Cause didn't even do anything, just taking aircon zzz.

Then, went down another story and wanted to just walk around first.
Texted mirul and he said he reach inter already.
So we went up back.
Syuk and the other two reach .
And slowly, Mirul and the rest came.
We so called set up the place first, and waited for yuni and rab to come.
hm, i'm lazy to update so i just skip this part?

They reached > take pictures > Cut cake > Cake smash on each other faces > huiyu came > more pictures > more people got cake on their faces > seperated with syuk > went to mafia to slack >

Slacked & lie down at the playground.
(; don't need have to say what happen there.
Those who were there,you know i know k.
After that , parents fetched and send huiyu and ziting back .
They coming my house tmr, hm .
Idk what food ): hahahah

2010-03-04T20:47:00.002+08:00

Tried a different build on Ai .
LOL. ignore the sacred relic . Bought it as i just want to end the game fast.

Didn't went school today.
Was doing my daily exercise then basha called me and said he otw my house already.
Quickly changed , and i ask him to come up my house first.
Ate, and left for Amir's house which is few blocks away from mine.
After that, took 22 and went his friend's house.
Slacked awhile, and i was looking at his friend playing dota. hahaha
After that around 1+, left the house and met up with yuni, mirul and the rest .
Went to school to meet up with mimi and renhao .
Then we went to slack at mafia(?) .
Went home after that.

I'd rather be your lover then your friend, but I'd rather be your friend then your nobody.

2010-03-03T22:45:00.003+08:00

Trying a different build, and it suck ):

Feel so damn shag this few days.
well, i dont know what i'm thinking.
Or maybe, what should i do? hm..

I never knew it would be this hurting to lose someone I never truly had.

2010-03-02T17:45:00.004+08:00

It's hurting when both, your best friend & someone to you are quarreling
And your stuck in the middle.
Both meant so precious, and both whom i treasure alot .
How i wish that Saturday, 27th didnt came.
That we didn't go out.
Then we all still be together, happy like last time right?

Being the middleman, you think it's not heartbreaking to see two person close to me like this?
I'm just trying to help.
And this is what i got.

I don't know what i did wrong.
All this while, i've been trying to prove my sincerity.
And.. Hais forget it okay.
Takecare , ♥

It's just hard to think that i'll never have the chance to say you're mine.

2010-02-23T19:59:00.007+08:00

Hah, okay i'm thinking too much (:
I believe i can just go through this as another obstacle in my life.
Whatever happens or the answer i get,
i can just keep my sadness to myself and act happy like i always do, right? HAHA.

2010-02-22T23:10:00.004+08:00

I'm leaving this blog dead for awhile.
Firstly, because i'm lazy.
Secondly, because i have no time.
Thirdly, i'm busy with someone.
Fourthly, i'm stressed out
Five, your just stupid to read all of this -.-

This few days, i realised i get easily irritated.
It's like, all of the sudden i get pissed for no reason.
Ha, i'm going crazy ~

Sometimes I wonder what you think of me

AhKhai and the lightning thief!

2010-02-21T14:58:00.002+08:00

Irina here to post for Khai! :P
Post title is Khai's idea!
"AhKhai and the lightning thief!"
I'm on the phone with him and he talking alot of rubbish lor!
K I shall stop here.
Nothing to say kthxbai. <:

2010-02-16T22:32:00.002+08:00

All those sad and loving times.

Morning went breakfast at bedok.
Headed to Cousin's house.
Was forced to help dad wash car -.-
Like idiot only, keep take water from cousin's house which is at second lvl,
and go downstairs with pail of bucket .

After that, cousin drive me home to get my wallet then send me to tanah merah.
Trained to airport, then took sky train to T3 .
While walking, bump into Ayunie.
okay, so no need call already .
My prepaid was badly low, only left around 20 cents? haha.
Was like idiot only, so long nvr go airport.
Then forgot where mac is.
Found it, then disturbed amirul while he was working.
Rab came later.
After that, trained to paya lebar.
Went to grandlink to meet mimi and hassan? Dont know how spell his name. HAHA.
Karaoke at there.
Like crazy only. Keep shout shout shout.
And the stupid auntie at the cashier keep look at me when i guailan her.
Like idiot lo, she the one who keep attitude.

After karaoke, bused to Parkway.
Ate macs, Went arcade .
And just slacked outside the hotel .
Ayunie went off after awhile to meet her friend.
H and mimi got problem, so they went off also.
Took 31 to Tamp then 293 homed.

Just hope this friday interview, they won't reject me .
Like everyone always do.

2010-02-16T00:12:00.002+08:00

Back from East Coast.
Went there with family, Cousins & Cousin's Cousins.

Well, barbecued there.
Made a campfire on the grass, and it was damn irritating.
Need keep throw woods in to make the fire bigger.
Most of it was enjoyable , i guess.

While i was lying down on the rocks, I look at those beautiful stars.
I thought to myself, why am i running away from people.
Somehow, i'm just so afraid to get close to anyone.
Because, i hate losing close ones.
& whats more, i hate to fade away from them.
Friends, how could i live without them?
There to make me happy, smile & all those crazy times.

Sentosa beach fiesta !

2010-01-31T19:33:00.003+08:00

Beach fiesta yesterday was fun !
didn't regret going out (:

Woke up at 5am.
Watched crow zero HAHA.
Fun show la . Only wish if singapore was like that huh.
Then maybe, there won't be any YP around .

Stopped watching at part 10, and went to bathe at around 7+ .
Went out at 8, and reached vivo around 9+ .
Fy called and said he just woke up.

Ok great, they didn't tell me what time to meet.
So i thought 9+ since 9 start the beach fiesta thingy.
Waited and waited, 11+ then they reach.
Funny thing was that, i told fy that i go back Dhouby to wait and just waste time on the train.
When i called like 40 min later, they say already at outram.
So i went back vivo, and met them at top lvl there.
Then trained to mrt.

When reach, we saw the car car thingy.
Forgot the name
But its not tram !
We asked her , whether going to wave house .
She said yup.
Then we all sat.
Then Zul was like ' Drift baby drift ! '
Then she really drive like crazy.
Damn fun la.

Reached wavehouse and just walked around.
Saw some faces .
Then one part when we going up the rocks, I slipped and fell.
It's because before that, i was sitting and my legs was in the water.
I guess it made my slippers slippery?

So yea, the finger which is beside the toe, its nail crack into two.
And its facing up now.
Funny thing was , it's not pain at all.
Hand bled :o .
haha , then we all stripped and went to swim.
The water damn cold la.
Then went going in deeper, i think the sand which i step on was not stable.
Like got one hold suddendly. I slip and like panic .
So i just swim non stop infront .
Then im was like ' You think swimming pool uh? '
haha . After bathing, we went to palawan beach.
Bought snacks, drinks and etc from 7-11 around there.
And we just slacked at palawan and eat.

A monkey was there.
And bal was like throwing foods at it.
Cute thing was it keep raising its eyebrows at us.
HAHA wth.
Then we went up the trap, and made one whole round to siliso .
Before reaching, this hot girl went to sit beside zul.
Then he was like talking in malay saying ' lets meet up tonight and etc '
And the girl was smiling.
Then we all suspect she understand. HAHA.

Then we went to Wave house and slack.
Wanted to try the surf wave thingy thing, but scare need pay.
We bought a jug of coke for like $15 ?
And sit outside wave house.
Too bad we can't buy alcohol due to age limit.

Wanted to see the sunset, but the clouds was blocking.
Around 7, we went to swim again.
But this time, like scary.
HAHA one thing its dark, and alot of things scare us.
Like floating plastic bag ? LOL wtf !

Then fy bought malboro supermium or something.
Packing damn nice, but it cost $18 :O LOL !

Around 9+, seperate with them cause i wanna get home early.
I'm too lazy to wait.
We planned to wait for some people to get drunks, cause confirm they will start dancing.
And everyone dance, and we joined in after that.
Since none of them did, i went home.
Inside the train, eyes kept closing, but i kept control.
Later like one idiot only, if fall in train .

Well, even though i only knew this guys almost for a month.
It's like we known each other for so long.
We're so close, share secrets .
Share our pasts and more.
But somehow, I just feel i don't fit in this clique.
I don't really know why .

And, for you .
I don't know, I don't know why i have this feeling.
I only met you once, And somehow i just want to see you again.
Right now, i'm just so worried for you.
Take care okay.
I hope, i could keep this secretly for a very long time.

Is love supposed to last throughout all time, or is it like trains changing at random stops.

2010-01-29T23:14:00.002+08:00

Sentosa party tommorow !
Need to wake up damn early since it start at 9am .
Okay bye !

2010-01-28T15:57:00.003+08:00

Back from camp !
Camp was great :D
( i try to update as much as i can remember :D . I forgot some of the games we played.)

Reported at 8am.
Waited, and waited & waited.
And finally the camp instructors came around 10? -.-
And we went into the room for a talk and intro ourselves.
After that, headed to the hostel .
Omg, the hostel damn nice i tell you !

Like hotel already :D, then near the lounge area got pool table.
Had games after we put our bags in the room .

My group name was Gay's 4 life.
HAHA , since we were all boys.
One of the instructor, fu asked us whether we want a girl in our team.
And we all said no , and say we are gays.
And he replied ' i'm gay too ' . *punches each other fists *
HAHA . wth can .

Lunch was kinda bad.
): don't like it . the drink damn no taste one !
had scissors paper stone , and
After that was captain's ball .
The gay's team was suppose to take out their shirt.
So everyone recognise each other teammate.
Lmao .

During some of the games, Fu kept whistling randomly as we were making alot of noise.
And he knew we boys sure will look one , cause thought got girls right. HAHA.
then in the end, we whistle back, and he kept quiet.

After dinner was blindfolded nightwalk.
Imran led us as he was not blindfolded .
I was behind him followed by mus and the rest.
Kinda irritating , since the instructor or whoever shit keep tickling, disturbing , making things drop to scare us .

After nightwalk, we were given an animal name each. And we were suppose to make the animal noise, and find our animals friend .
Lets say i am dog, so i am suppose to hear another dog barking and find them while blindfolded.
My given animal was a donkey.
And i found my first, since he was very near me. i just started kicking everyone i feel LOL.

After that was supper , and had a talk with the instructor.
Talking about our bad experience in life and etc.
Then was our rest.
The instructors asked us to sleep until they gave up at around 2?
Since we all wanted to ton so damn badly.
SOme played pool , some went smoking at the staircase ( since we cant smoke in the hostel due to some reasons) and some went to watch tv.
While i , go around disturbing people who are sleep.
Lmao ! Around 3+, Me , elfy and mimi decided to rest for like an hr till 4.
I slept on Imran's bed since i didn't get a bed due to so many people in a room.
Only 4 bed per room.

Blah, we all didn't woke up at 4 since couldnt hear alarm.
And i woke up, with imran beside me. LOL . wth .
I think i kicked him alot of times while im sleeping ._.
After that, tidy up .
Had caterpillar game, photos , and was dismissed.

Went macs with Ayunie and some others.
Bused home after that ^__^

2010-01-06T18:47:00.002+08:00

School's boring and tiring.
My attendance sucks haha.

Well, been thinking of it.
I miss my old friends :/
I mean those true friends.

I took the wrong path in life.
I admit i did a mistake .
Seriously, you guys were the best :o .
Well, one of you was from my primary sch , to secondary and now even in ite i saw you .
Now, you all became my hi - bye friends.
It's like everytime we meet , we would ask the same question ' hey , how are you ? ' and etc.

If only not for my ego, i would say sorry and just apologise for the past things that i did .
I remember once, that i argue w one of you because of a girl when we were sec 1 .
Sorry for getting in your way .

Well, indeed i went to the wrong path .

2009-12-31T20:56:00.001+08:00

Regrets, but it's no use regretting .
everything is over now.
Well, i guess it's time to move on.

2009-12-30T18:14:00.004+08:00

Post deleted, since you had read it already (:

2009-12-29T09:17:00.005+08:00

I wanna be the one your giving your love to

Maybe i should take april intake (:
Because I'm lazy to go school. hahaha.
Slacking today :o , Buying uniform and paying fees tmr .
But, at least Aliff and me got the same course, Electrical and same sch , Simei .

2009-12-26T08:21:00.001+08:00

Christmas :o,

train to amk > slack at ken's house > kfc > slack more > home .

2009-12-24T17:05:00.001+08:00

Thanks Gwen for the blogskin.

Just came back from Tamp 1.
Okayyy, finally created specs.
Fuck shit, my degrees increased to 200+ .
& Thanks cousin for buying me that topman shirt .

K nothing to update about, bye (:

2009-12-24T11:04:00.003+08:00

This is my life yet people try to shut me down.

Okay, i need a blogskin change.
But i'm lazy to search or even do one.
Waiting for Eileen to finish my skin :o

Can't go to ken house today as wasnt feeling well ( like again -.- god i'm lazy to go the doctor)
And instead, going poly and then making my specs.
Since my specs got stepped on by that bitch.

2009-12-22T12:23:00.003+08:00

Sunday
went to watch avatar 3d .
A must watch show .
Effects so nice .

Hm, going Amk, Ken's house this thursday and watching Chipmunks 2 this friday.

k bye.

2009-12-18T19:40:00.000+08:00

Took result just now (:
well you could say, passing 4 was what i wish LOL.
because i can't pass the other two.

Hm, so i guess simei ite here i come? :D
had fever and my head was all dizzy when i reach home.
Just woke up and my fever got worse .

Well 4 more hrs to my birthday (;

2009-12-10T18:43:00.002+08:00

K, last game until i come back sg (:
hahah. Nic was training me again, and so we both v 5 ai.
And nic keep say, i blink too slow.
And i like come le , all want run i hit one by one lol wtf.

Okayokay, just want thank nic for guiding me ^^ .
hm, i will be going for holiday tmr till next friday?
k bye !

2009-12-05T17:44:00.004+08:00

Lol, so much for guild family uh.
I still remember when Mc disbanded, you straight go recreate guild
Then say what bullshit, won't close down.
At one time, people ask me to join their guild in front of you.
Remember you told me, ' you won't join one. You tiongxim Hnd right? F2 '
LOLL. You make my toes laugh now la .

Wow, whatever k .
Guild won't be the same .
Want know why? Because of the name . (:
you sian of the name? then i sian of playing k .
Bye . Wasted few months on this fcking shit.
Wasted my time to travel from tampines to amk just to meet you
then go meet the rest for guild outing.
Fuck it okay.

Well, i don't wanna waste my breath anymore.
Do what you all want .
Everyone's the same.
I really thought, i could keep all this friendships.
but, well i know.
Once i quit , all of us won't be close anymore .
So takecare.

2009-12-03T19:40:00.002+08:00

Well, i wanna change my blogskin.
But i'm damn lazy); thats why i always anyhow pick blogskin,
and so it looks damn ugly.
Whatever.

& been Dota-ing this few days.
Don't know why will get addicted to it.
Last time, the very first time i touch dota.
I hate it cause i don't know how to play .
Then, nic taught me .
That's why more fun

Had 1v1 with pck in the morning.
Kinda gave him chance x.x
since i only kill him 1 time, when i got so many opportunities to kill.
Only got two ss though.
And don't say my build is fat ! :3

2009-11-29T15:17:00.001+08:00

Back from malaysia.
this few days boring. k bye

2009-11-25T21:37:00.001+08:00

Going Malaysia tommorow until Sunday.
Takecare all :D

2009-11-23T00:42:00.004+08:00

Okay,i'm finally updating after idk how many years?
Had SgHongster/HongsterND guild outing on 15th Nov, which is last Sunday.
Went out house about 10.50.
While waiting for bus, Ken text me to take cab.
So, took cab to his house there which is at Amk .
Cost around $14 +.
Went to his grandparents house take money, and he gave me $10 for the cabfare .
then we went back Hecken house.

Ken kept saying Hecken will be shocked when he saw me.
Then ken keep shake hecken to wake up.
When he turn, he saw me then jitao chua tio .
Lol , like whatthehell !

Slacked, smoke & etc.
Then we trained to Vivo to meet Nic and then SuperBk around 2+.
Was deciding on which movie to watch since 2012 all front seat.
In the end, got 8.40pm show at gvmax. lol 3rd row from the front .
Still okay luh, gvmax the seat 3rd row from the front like almost middle in normal cinema.

so we got like 5hour+ to the show.
Went arcade, puff . And then bus to ken house.
Seriously, nic keep disturb the ahneh infront of us .
LOL wtf la .
All our nonsense kept come out .
Reach ken house bus stop there 6+.
The bus fking long la.

Well, skip some parts due to lazy-ness.
Help ken w pserver thingy awhile then me and nic went to the coffee shop downstairs to eat.
After that, bus to vivo around 7.30.
inside the bus, i kept complaining and nagging about later late to movie since bus journey long.
Just nice, we reach 10 minutes early.
Puff awhile, toilet then went in the Cinema.

The show damn nice.
I give it 10/10 :D LOL.
But sit almost 3hours in the cinema, butt cramp ): .
Parents fetch me and nic home ^___^.
Home at 1am.

Well, i need a job.
Damn bored at home.
Been playing SuddenAttack this few days .
Started the habit after my noobms account got banned for like 3 days? Lame shit.

below is my first squad battle KD ( kill : death ratio ) .

and i'm pissed off by this guy.
Look, he mush copy my style after the first time he saw me? totally wow.

Well, currently waiting for my fansigns to be finished (:
Only one done, thanks <3 (:

2009-11-17T16:28:00.001+08:00

hi, bye

2009-10-29T13:57:00.006+08:00

Well, i will start updating, relink & replying people comments.
And i'm also changing my skin later on .

Saturday ; 24th

Had SgHongster/HongsterND guild outing [;
Changed & went out at about 11am.
Reached Amk . And cabbed to Ken Ahma's house .
Slack there for awhile, then after Ken changed, took a few minutes walk to his house.
Then ken told me, heineken and him was neighbours .
LOL. saw heineken, then the three of us walked to Amk hub there to meet Jw .

Took bus to ehub to meet another two guys ( forgot their name )
Played arcade for awhile & then cabbed to vivo to meet cynthia gf.
Don't know which idiot say from pasir ris to vivo is less than $10.
End up is $19 . Me , jw & ken took the same cab & paid $7++ each .

Met Cynthia, then went eat.
Slacked outside for awhile.
kristi came after that .
Few minutes afterwards , seperated from kristi .
headed sengkang & etc .
Trained home with jw .
reached home around 11 .

Monday ; 26th

Met Aliff at Tampines Mrt at 3pm.
Then we walked to Taufik Boncet(Aliff's cousin) 's house .
& I accident left my cigarette there ): sad.
Then we took bus 21 to ehub.
Waited for Syafiqah & Iqrak at the bus stop .

Started bbq, eat , slack & etc.
Left chalet at 9pm+ , reached home at 11pm [;

Tuesday & Wed
Second day of chalet :D tonned there,

Met hisyam at tamp mrt at 1pm.
Took Mrt & walk to the chalet .
I just know, i ate alot :D .
Followed Fahrin at around 4+ to meet his father.
his mother cooked rice for us [;

Miss Raudha & Miss lee came later on.
We carried on barbeque-ing until around 3am+.
Then just slacked inside the chalet, talked & etc.
Saw something in the toilet, which i'm really afraid of .
Well you guys should know what it is .

Around 5++, all started going to sleep.
I just know, the bed was damn squeezy as there was around 5 or 6 people on the bed.
Ok the picture below which i draw using paint , looks more bigger.
But seriously, in real i hardly can even turn around.

Well H is hisyam, k is me, B is bi & p is people? LOL !
i forgot whose the other three.
Oh well .
Bi didn't slept and was playing her ipod the whole time.
i slept for an hour, and around 6.30 .
Bi woke me up as there's space beside me since hisyam went to sleep on the floor.
Moved, & tried sleeping . but can't . LOL !
I was busy hugging bi the whole time =3.
& bi keep saying i'm erxin cause i kept wanting to open my shirt or somehow LOL,

Around 8++, bathe .
At first didn't wanted to go in as there was a coach roach but oh well, i eh sai one what.
then fahrin keep insisting to follow go him pool toilet to bathe, but im lazy.
So i just bathe there.
Hisyam, Fahrin , Aliff & I Seperated from the rest as they are going for breakfast.
Aliff took 5 & the three of us took 21.
reached home at around 10+ & slept all the way until 3 or 4 :D
i'm a pig, i know [; .

Well, pictures of the chalet are at my facebook.
i'm lazy to save and post all those pictures.
ok bye !

Pea brains

2009-10-23T06:51:00.004+08:00

Well, i just want to talk about this topic.
It's getting in my head for so long now.

What's so wrong about skinny people go to the gym?
It's as if those freaking bodybuilders was already borned with all muscles.
Common, they didn't have any muscles too & had a small build.
And if skinny people can't go to gym, you mean only those not skinny people can go?
What kind of logic is that? Whatever, look below. -.-

there are three types of body type.

First is Endomorphic, body type is characterized by an increased amount of fat storage, due to having a larger number of fat cells than the average person, as well as higher proportion of digestive tissue. They have a wide waist and a large bone structure. They could gain muscle easily but losing bodyfat to show abs is hard.

Second is Mesomorphic, body type is characterized by a high rate of muscle growth and a higher proportion of muscular tissue. They have large bones, solid torso combined with low fat levels. It is also noted that they have wide shoulders with a narrow waist. They could gain muscle easily and is naturally lean.

Third is Ectomorphic(the one that skinny people are) , body type is characterized by long arms and legs and a short upper body and narrow shoulders, and supposedly have a higher proportion of nervous tissue. They also have long and thin muscles. Ectomorphs usually have a very low fat storage; therefore they are usually referred to as slim. Easily becomes ripped with great 8-pack abs but gaining muscle is slow and difficult for them.

I'm ectomorphic and my friends & me got told off by some freaking ego people at the gym.
For what? They said we shouldn't be lifting at my size.
I was like what the f . -.-

& For those who don't even know any shit about bodybuilding,
You guys think you know it all?
You think just by going a month or few , you guys could be like a wrestler with all those big muscle?
Oh, go get some research.
You could only gain 5-10 pounds per year and that's with great nutrition and with intense workouts. You guys think 5 - 10 pounds is alot? Think again. Great nutrition, you know what i deal with , what i control my diet to ? I didn't even eat Kfc, macdonalds anymore just to control it. I had to eat 6 meals per day on my diet plan, 280 calories and at least 18g of protein per meal.

& Stfu if you think this is some slimming diet plan.
All bodybuilders need to go through this, be it beginners or advance.
Don't think , you guys can lift 2 hours a day and just eat junk foods.
The results you get will be .. -.- i doubt you hardly see any results.

& if you guys want to ask how i know so much, if im lying or not .
Like i said, research .
go ask around, i've been into some bodybuilding forums this & that so i know.

I started researching at around June, i didn't really did much lifting.
Maybe once per two or three weeks ? Since i'm busy with exams and i'm lazy .

Since my exams are over last monday, I've been going to the gym everyday without fail from tuesday onwards until today.
It may be intense, but i'm doing the correct form .
I don't need to act at the gym, carrying 20kgs if i can hardly do it correctly.
I be just wasting my time .

& put it into those heads of you guys who think you know it all .
Whatever, just because we are skinny doesn't mean we can't go to the gym . Assholes.

2009-10-15T00:10:00.002+08:00

Watched the tsunami show.
Show started at 9.40pm.
reach home at around 12am.
The korean , forgot whats the title though.
Kinda sad.
It's just , you didn't get and couldnt say what you wanted to the person you love.
And when you did, it's already over.
People never did treasure what they have.

& so did i.
Looking back in the past,
i wish i had said somemore things.
I wish i could change back time .
Somehow, then everything won't be like this.

2 more hours, just 2 more .
& i'm going for that.
Who knows ,what will happen right?

2009-10-11T21:52:00.000+08:00

Sorry :/
goodbye.

2009-10-09T22:23:00.000+08:00

Anyway, best this is the best piccy i guess? :D LOL

2009-10-09T21:20:00.007+08:00

Well, this few days paper was okay i guess?
Except for tuesday which i vomited in the hall.
I was paiseh after that -.-
Okay whatever, crap.

Well, having guild outing on 24th.
Can't wait for it [; .
Can't wait for 11th & 13th also :D.
Ah, here's our guild pictures.
S.h huat uh .

2009-10-03T23:23:00.002+08:00

Last day in Btss yesterday? ):
Well, after 5 years in this school, just can't wait to leave it.
But somehow, feel quite sad la.
hahah, 2 years with this class .
it's the class i enjoy most :D
and somehow i'm glad i retained? -.- LOL !
And i miss going to the toilet after every lesson . ok wth.

hm, monday N lvl already.
Won't be online much.
bye

I don't care [:

2009-09-19T13:08:00.001+08:00

Okay , i'm going out at 3.
Be back at around 2am ^^ .
Anything text =o

I was holding on just long enough to know

2009-09-19T09:25:00.005+08:00

Friday

Woke up at 6.
Bathe till 6.40 am.
Took bus 5 and walk damn slowly to school.

Went to macdonald instead and slept there for awhile.
Went in school at around 7.55am.
First period chemistry, followed by physics.
Recess > Watch video > Maths > Free lesson .

After school, met Shiping and Shijiao outside school.
Then went off . Handle some taiji thingy.
Ok, matter sua. Like finally.

Use com and studied maths till around 8.30pm.
Then start to iron my clothes.
Fk, i won't ever iron and play the com at the same time.
My hand got burn as a result as i accident hit the iron with my elbow.
And now theres a long burnt scar -.-.
Waiting for it to dry up so i can pull the skin off zz.
At 9pm, went out with family here and there till around 1am.
Split up with them, and met Alex & co.

Walked around and slacked at marina bay with them.
Reached home at around 5am.

Somehow, after all this.
Even though i got all the freedom i always wanted, but somehow there's something missing.
It's just that, the freedom i wanted was to spend with someone.
But now, i don't see a point to have all these freedom.
Because, i'm wishing i don't have any freedom now.

And that someone was right,
The only thing i should concentrate now, is my N levels and to change my attitude [:
& that i should be happy for that someone.
Well, i guess she's right ^^

Bad day D:

2009-09-14T17:06:00.003+08:00

Well , it all started when i just alighted from the bus i took, which is bus 21.
I crossed the road and walk pass a coffee shop.
When suddendly, an indian man walk pass and say ' eh handsome guy, how are you? ' .

Then i thought it as a compliment or something LOL, and walk behidn the coffee shop.
And realise he was following me -.-.
he then shouted ' eh boy ' .
I thought what is it now, and stopped . And gave him hand languages like ' what ' .
Then he come and ask me .
where i'm going .
I replied im going tuition, late already.

Then he say follow him awhile .
And he keep asking i like to enjoy and have fun or not , walan eh
I wanted to get away later so i lied that i agreed.
While walking back to the coffee shop where i first see him,
he touch my face and say i handsome.

I quickly walk to the other place and he shouted ' oi where you going '.
I walk even faster and when turning behind a shop, i sprint all the way home D:

Ok , so what if i know how to fight .
You could say i can beat him.
But seriously, the only thing that im afraid the most is gays D:

Happy birthday.

It's really time to make a change

2009-09-12T20:08:00.005+08:00

Hi, bye.
Well, check out my channel? :O

http://youtube.com/user/blazekhaiz

Well, i guess i stop lying ^^
And i put much thought in it,
I don't wish to say anything anymore ^^
let people say what people want, why should i go to their level and discriminate them right?
Well, sorry for everything .
Early Birthday :O